Wednesday, August 13, 2008

huana'dem deyz

I just heard of Bic Runga's Goodmorning Baby and FM Static's 6 Candles. It's nice. I like it. Sam (xlibris batchmate 35) was the one who told me to listen to these, also asked what I thought about it.

Goodmorning Baby
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B8RU2WNK4eU

Between an overload of information
And a striving for a pure dedication I
Find myself looking for the exit sign
See your pretty face in the sunshine
In the morning after staying up all night I
Want to wake you just to hear you
Tell me it's alright
And all I want to be is too much
Sometimes for me
Good morning baby
I hope I'm gonna make it through another day
Good morning baby
I hope I'm gonna make it through another day
See the stars and all the planets
Fly the great wide world and have it all
Yeah better get a ticket better get in line
I'm praying now for beautiful weather
Take a car and drive forever but I'm
Only ever sitting at the traffic light
And all the world to see is too much
Sometimes for me
Good morning baby
I hope I'm gonna make it through another day
Good morning baby
I hope we're gonna make it through another day
(And when you rise)
And when you rise you'll find me here
(Open your eyes)
And see myself reflected there
(And for awhile)
A little room becomes an everywhere

6 Candles
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Mgu7jbtc5U


You're amazing but you're taking too much time
I’ve only got six candles left
And I’m trying to keep this off my mind
It’s getting darker but it’s the way they make me feel
They try to fill my head with questions
They all doubt you but I know you're real

If it takes time then I’ll be patient
Know that I will still believe
I’ll take your hand and hold it tightly
'cause I know you’ll carry me

Take me high, Take me in, Take these last six candles
And when I’m tired, and wearing thin
Give me the strength to carry on
Here I am, see my hands, take these last six candles
We’re moving on, we’ll keep, keep, moving on

And I’m so thankful for every breath I take
There's not a moment that goes by
I waste wiping tears out of my crying face
Don’t look so sad, you’ve missed the point
I’m still so glad I knew you against the odds
I’ll take my chances and burn this candle through you

If it takes time then I’ll be patient
Know that I will still believe
I’ll take your hand and hold it tightly
'cause I know you’ll carry me

Take me high, Take me in, Take these last six candles
And when I’m tired, and wearing thin
Give me the strength to carry on
Here I am, see my hands, take these last six candles
We’re moving on, we’ll keep, keep, moving on

If I could ever see the way you understand me
When no one else can see it
I know you surround me

I’ll be the one who listens only when you tell me
Not walking but running, not talking, yelling

And they might never understand why I do what I do
But I can only speak my mind
And what I feel is true
I’ll take a vow to be the only one who stands if it takes
All that I am, I will be standing, there, there


Take me high, Take me in, Take these last six candles
And when I’m tired, and wearing thin
Give me the strength to carry on
Here I am, see my hands, take these last six candles
We’re moving on, we’ll keep, keep, moving on
(Repeat x2)

Real nice. hmmm....what I think about both songs.... I'm not so sure. Well one things for sure both talk about love passionately *but then again, all songs do.
If I'll hear these songs some time in the future then I'm pretty sure I'll remember Sam. *lolz. He's got a nice taste in music. Now I already know 2 guys who like Dave Matthews Band's Ants Marching, Sam and Ditch (bigfoot tl) *too bad I deleted my last blog entries - - I had a lot of songs' lyrics there and a bunch of memories too...gud 'uns.

Sunday, June 22, 2008

and I said goodbye.

sent: 06-21-2008
to: ...

I rily didnt knw dt its posible jud dt a lov can last 4ever.
Pipol r skeptics bwt ds coz dy r n constant denial;
Afraid of rjction, afraid of pain and afraid of taking risks.
It took me 6 years to realize this.
One chance, dats ol u hav.
F u think u'v found it, then go ahead - jump!
Dnt wory bwt dying jst yet, ul know it when u get there.
Som live and hav d chance of hapiness, they are d lucky ones.
Some die, unable to endure d pain of not being caught from dyr fol.
Irony of love.
Me? I died.

Yes, I think this is my way of telling him that I'm saying goodbye. I can't be a fool forever you know. Enough is enough. It's about time that I wake up. Now I know what Bob Marley meant when he didn't want to wait in vain for love. It's just to painful. It's as if your standing at the edge of a cliff, not knowing if somebody will catch you by the time you'll finally have the guts to jump. That's why I sent him the message. But I know that he's clueless na that message was FOR him. We'll I don't know. I'm putting a stop sign and I'm changing directions, 'coz if I don't, I know I won't be able to make it anywhere.

Then maybe, just maybe, by the time I'll read this again years from now, I'd be able to smile because I would remember that this was the day that I said goodbye.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Believing + Fate = Stupidity


fate

noun

  1. That which is inevitably destined
- - -

Is there such thing as fate?
I think that people who believe in fate are desperate.
I think I believe in fate.
So does that mean I'm desperate?

I really don't know. Maybe I am.
I keep on trying to hold on to something so surreal.
I keep on reaching out to someone who doesn't even want to know that I still exist.
Is this what you call karma?
If it is then hell, I should say that the karmic law is a bitch.

I sound so bitter.
I don't like myself when I'm bitter.
Why should I be? After 6 years?
This is hilarious.
Laugh out loud people, laugh out loud!

This is so stupid.
This whole thing is making me stupid.

Sunday, June 1, 2008

A Song by Colbie Caillat

... was all he said.

I don't know why I'm missing someone who I don't think I would miss six years ago. I try so hard every single day to not think about him but it's helpless.

What could have happened if I stayed and never left Iligan? I wish.
We had something special. But I ended it because I was too immature. I had hurt him, I know. I didn't think at all that that could have been it. He could have been my Mr. Right. We could have shared a lifetime together. These are all what if's, I just wish I could have another shot of the real thing.

I just miss him a lot. Period. When he asked me almost a year ago, what was he in my life -- I answered "You are someone that I like talking to". (I was too scared to tell him that he was someone that I had always hoped to be with. I was afraid of rejection.) He said, I was too shallow. Was I?
Who was I to expect that he wanted something more? He hated and never spoke to me for years. And just like that, he expects me to read in between the lines?

Why can't you understand me? Why won't you listen to what I have to say now? Is it that hard? Have you really moved on already? Have you? This is tough shit.

What's making me feel bad about the whole situation is that no matter how much I try and ask myself the "what if's", all the answers point to me; that I am to be blamed for all the mess that I'm going through. This is so unfair. All I do is beat myself up emotionally.

Well, there is nothing that I can really do at this point. I guess I'll just wait. Time will tell. Time, time, time. For how long? Another couple of years? Geeezz... Why can't love be any easier?
Paco, can you bring him back to me?

A song by Colbie Caillat , it's REALIZE. I hope you took the time to listen to it for me. And I said that this song will tell you exactly what I want to tell you now.