and I said goodbye.

sent: 06-21-2008
to: ...

I rily didnt knw dt its posible jud dt a lov can last 4ever.
Pipol r skeptics bwt ds coz dy r n constant denial;
Afraid of rjction, afraid of pain and afraid of taking risks.
It took me 6 years to realize this.
One chance, dats ol u hav.
F u think u'v found it, then go ahead - jump!
Dnt wory bwt dying jst yet, ul know it when u get there.
Som live and hav d chance of hapiness, they are d lucky ones.
Some die, unable to endure d pain of not being caught from dyr fol.
Irony of love.
Me? I died.

Yes, I think this is my way of telling him that I'm saying goodbye. I can't be a fool forever you know. Enough is enough. It's about time that I wake up. Now I know what Bob Marley meant when he didn't want to wait in vain for love. It's just to painful. It's as if your standing at the edge of a cliff, not knowing if somebody will catch you by the time you'll finally have the guts to jump. That's why I sent him the message. But I know that he's clueless na that message was FOR him. We'll I don't know. I'm putting a stop sign and I'm changing directions, 'coz if I don't, I know I won't be able to make it anywhere.

Then maybe, just maybe, by the time I'll read this again years from now, I'd be able to smile because I would remember that this was the day that I said goodbye.