A Song by Colbie Caillat

... was all he said.

I don't know why I'm missing someone who I don't think I would miss six years ago. I try so hard every single day to not think about him but it's helpless.

What could have happened if I stayed and never left Iligan? I wish.
We had something special. But I ended it because I was too immature. I had hurt him, I know. I didn't think at all that that could have been it. He could have been my Mr. Right. We could have shared a lifetime together. These are all what if's, I just wish I could have another shot of the real thing.

I just miss him a lot. Period. When he asked me almost a year ago, what was he in my life -- I answered "You are someone that I like talking to". (I was too scared to tell him that he was someone that I had always hoped to be with. I was afraid of rejection.) He said, I was too shallow. Was I?
Who was I to expect that he wanted something more? He hated and never spoke to me for years. And just like that, he expects me to read in between the lines?

Why can't you understand me? Why won't you listen to what I have to say now? Is it that hard? Have you really moved on already? Have you? This is tough shit.

What's making me feel bad about the whole situation is that no matter how much I try and ask myself the "what if's", all the answers point to me; that I am to be blamed for all the mess that I'm going through. This is so unfair. All I do is beat myself up emotionally.

Well, there is nothing that I can really do at this point. I guess I'll just wait. Time will tell. Time, time, time. For how long? Another couple of years? Geeezz... Why can't love be any easier?
Paco, can you bring him back to me?

A song by Colbie Caillat , it's REALIZE. I hope you took the time to listen to it for me. And I said that this song will tell you exactly what I want to tell you now.